Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Project No Mommy Juice: Day 4

I'm schizophrenic. I admit it. She's moved on and I want her to want me. She didn't even try to nurse today. She would grab her cup and move on with her life. I guess I should get one. A life that is.

Well my friends seems this project has come to an end. I thought it would have lasted a little longer. Thought she would still be waking up in cold sweats from withdrawals, at least for a few more days. I guess everyone needs to know they are expendable. 

Pretty soon I'll be taking the sippy cup. Until our next fight...

Monday, March 5, 2012

Project No Mommy Juice: Day 3

We cried today. She cried because her main source of comfort was withheld. I cried because I could see the hurt in her eyes. I knew she was confused and angry. I wanted to nurse her so bad. However, I couldn't give in even an inch. It would would only make things harder and more frustrating for both of us.
I will say I'm learning her needs and quirks better. I hadn't realized my answer to all things Elsa was... nursing.

Well... transition for both of us.

I love you sweet baby. I'll always remember our precious moments.
Mommy

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Project No Mommy Juice: Day 2

I'm sooooo tired. Nobody said weaning would be this exhausting. I'm fighting with my baby over my body. Even though I've shared my body with her for almost 2 years (9mo pregnant 10mo breastfeeding) I feel guilty and sad. I've enjoyed breastfeeding. It has been a rewarding experience. We fumbled so much in the beginning. So, we learned together eventually becoming pros.
 I've bonded with my sweet girl in such a special way. We've fallen to sleep together. We've laughed together. Even had a few crying moments together...all while nursing. I know the bonding isn't over. We'll bond in new ways. I'll just miss this part of our relationship. I had no idea how quickly it would go. I guess this what is meant by "Enjoy them while their small, it will be over before you know it" 
If you can do it I encourage every mom to breastfeed. The discomfort in weaning can't compare to the beauty of nursing.


Sunday, November 27, 2011

Best Thanksgiving Ever

This Thanksgiving is probably my favorite of all time. I spent the morning with husband and children cooking. Okay, the six month old wasn't exactly cooking. However, she did sit patiently sit in her highchair gumming on baby cookies. We had her sitting in the doorway of the kitchen she was very content. We cooed and blew her kisses throughout the morning.

The rest of us had a great time making a mess. Yams, holiday sushi, mac & cheese and fried green beans. We maneuvered around each other cutting, chopping and such. I didn't expect my oldest to really hang in there all day the way she did. I was very proud of her. It was a dream come true.

When I was young my grandmother and I cooked together every holiday. I didn't exactly cook. I more like functioned as a human food processor. Now we had about 5 different types of food processors. Howbeit I think my Gran just like to see me working. She had thing about people having gainful employment. Well since she passed I've never had the same warm and fuzzy feeling on the holiday again. Yet, cooking with my husband and daughter... that did it. With the music up recipes in hand we got to work. It was awesome.

I do hope my daughters look back at their childhood holidays with a sense of nostalgia. With that sense I pray the create new memories and traditions for their families.

Happy Thanksgiving to all. I'm thankful for my family and the memories we create.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Live a Little Challenge 10

Day 10: Lit the fireplace tonight. In all honesty it wasn't cold enough for it. Still it was wonderful. All four of us in front of the fire. Elsa squirming. The rest of us playing cards laughing with and at each other. 

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Live a Little Challenge 9

Day 9: I listened to just about all of my guilty pleasure songs. I enjoyed every moment without feeling the least bit guilty. There is something liberating about dancing around with a wooden spoon singing  your favorite songs. I think today and day-1 have been my favorites.

Monday, November 14, 2011

Live a Little Challenge 8

Day 8: I went shopping. It was guilt free self indulgent shopping. I went with the expressed consent of my husband. I ended the day feeling pretty and happy. I'm grateful to my husband for this field trip. I haven't reached pre-baby weight. Nevertheless, I still like me especially now with cute clothes.